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I am just going to put this word here (I googled the word transition, and although I can recognize the consonants, I am not too quick to read with the vowels and the right tones yet.) Just a random thought, but I have been spending quite a bit of time just listening to my Thai friends speak, and usually I cannot understand a single word although I hear certain repeating sounds and have learned what may possibly be negations, but I have no idea what verb is being negated. I wonder if they think I'm really weird that I stay silent for long periods of time to just listen. I cannot really put into words why I feel so drawn to this language and the sounds.  I am wondering at this very moment if there will ever be a moment where the words cease to be just purely sounds, and I cross the boundary into a territory where I cannot hear the sounds anymore---when I think of what Korean sounds like, I can't really say---and the thoughts convey themselves first before the sounds.  I wonder if I will be a little sad when this transition happens.  I hope that when I do become more familiar with the language, and I can read more quickly, I will look at the title I gave to this post and think: "wow that is a stupid title."

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Walking at night

 In a city, the stars fall from the sky and litter the streets in the form of headlights and streetlights.  Our bodies stay cold and unburnt.  The heavens are starless--a grey expanse with no limits.  The stars would have provided context for distance.  But there is no distance. Fuck. We deserve the best--"best" requiring a whole lifetime to define.