Monday, July 11, 2022

a confessional touch

is what it could be. Dancing half-naked to forgotten music, an intoxicated figure approaches.  We cast invisible cellophane curtains; the rising temperature replaces possible caresses. This is perhaps an insulated thought. 

i run down the stairs and lie on a graveled road. It is hot, but the dirty floor is cold to the touch. The pebbles make their nests in my skin, and i do not notice.

Pressed against the cracks of a couch, i wake with a deep line traversing the back of my hand. 



Monday, June 13, 2022

Warmth


 Having an understanding seems to be the best way to stay warm.

Friday, May 20, 2022

Signs and symbols

 Told by elders that we were brother and sister. Fireworks shot in the sky during a smoke (with the wastebins) on the balcony at an LP bar. It could have been romantic.  Fusion Japanese taco restaurants that actually just had takoyaki. Walking from palm tree to palm tree because of the scorching sun.  Walking from restaurant to restaurant because each one was closed.  Tapping a tuning fork to the softest part of one's skin to no effect. Fish that tastes like funky cheese. Almost losing my keyboard and going over the possibility that I would have to buy new rosin, a new reverb pedal, and ultimately a new keyboard: I was ready for the loss that never happened. All the while, he hums Chopin's second nocturne and wishes for the day that he could see his wizened face in the mirror. The details. Do these moments amount to anything? I just want to remember. 


Sunday, March 27, 2022

A name that means river


I woke up unaware that I would listen to this song and suddenly be pummeled back to the early 2010s. I am longing for the energy that created the buzz of people in the concert halls and streets of the Hongik University area---the same energy that connected me to all the strangers around me.  There's some consolation knowing that there was a time to think back to like this.  The river flows continuously and you're still part of this river that sweeps you back to times as well as takes you forward. I wonder...in 10 years or so, when the river takes me back to now, what will I be feeling? Or will the river always take me back to the early 2010s?

Wishes

 


Tuesday, March 15, 2022

Home


 Somewhere back then is where I would go if I could go home.  What happens when home isn't a place anymore but yesterday? 

Wednesday, March 2, 2022

Finding touch in sound


 This was part of stilton's list on trills on the RYM website, and I just immediately loved it so much.  Lately, I've been infatuated with recordings and/or pieces that seem to include all the sounds of the fingers, the breathing, all things palpable.  This feels like it shivers, it feels like light tapping, like a soft gust of wind flowing past your face, little spaces between bubbles, froth in the mouth, the spit forming in the instrument.  I realize that I'm in such need of intimacy that I find myself enamored with and of the human gestures behind these sounds.