These days, I have been so busy that I felt quite satiated by my schedule: working on two albums, helping students, spending time with my band members, etc. And then, a really good friend of mine from Japan emailed me, and I emailed him back a semi-long excited letter about this and that, life being exciting, who I'd seen...etc. The split second that I pressed the send button, I knew something was off. Had I really been there in that letter?
And then, forgot about it.
And now, a few weeks later, (and I'll revert again), for five minutes or so, I see glowing shards inside me, a fragmentation that still shines, but not meeting as a whole.
But, at the same time, I feel that it is okay. And as simple as it sounds, I think it is important to let yourself be happy the way you want to be. And this includes looking at the leaves and seeing how pretty they are, and looking at the sky and how the clouds look like things that only you can see...and just how pretty are icicles, and how soft is that breeze, and yes, that breeze was there for you---anyhow, all these things.
